Last Warm-up of Quarter (October 2016)
Q: Who do you admire most and why?
A: Admiration like idolatry is something I do not endorse. However, admiration like awe or inspiration or aspiration to be like (personality not circumstance) is something I have for many: all of those dealing with war/environment or severe communal problems, those with mental or physical illnesses, those who have finished/produced creative works, those who donate their resources to benefit others in need and those who have made something of their lives.
I belong in none of these groups and should in order to maximize my worth.
I fail to properly distinguish idolatry from wanting to be someone else. Latter sounds like envy.
Vague and confusing phrasing recurs: "severe communal problems", "confusing family histories", "external situations".
I have shown possible symptoms of mild mental illness in many of these old writings, and all of this admiration is directed outwards in order to undermine myself.
I am certainly referring to mental and physical disabilities. Those who are chronically or acutely ill rarely wish to be idolized for that alone; rather, their accomplishments are what make them worthy of our interest.
Not all creative works are admirable, but work ethic and creative drive are.
By this point, I had donated my hair twice in my attempts to feel purposeful, but I see why that might not count. While I do have other plans for tissue donation, those are also somewhat self-serving.
You could maximize your worth by taking care of yourself.
My message is to opt in to organ donation, and organ donation should be opt-out anyway.
Furthermore, if you worry about being worthy, honoring yourself like any other friend will make you into someone worthy, as treating yourself better makes you better.
Thursday/Friday: I was bored and was not aware that there was no warm-up.
My life is fast series of equinoxes. Summer is pure activity and winter is pure inactivity. I hope that one day life will be all seasons in one day. "one day" is unnecessarily repeated.
While this metaphor is decently executed, I must note that summers (and holidays in general) tend to be boring and less active, but that is because my time is poorly managed and I get bored easily.
Interestingly enough, my favorite seasons are equinoxes, as I dislike uncomfortable extremes. My centrism knows no bounds.
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