Elementary Soccer & Unnecessary Self-Loathing
I tried out and failed at “city league” (or something of that sort) soccer sometime before fourth grade.
One time, I wanted to play soccer with my classmates due to my desperation for friends and I impulsively touched ball with my hands.
TIP: If you do not understand how to do something and cannot/will not get any learning resources, do not try.
Anyway, everyone became irritated — I think they overreacted, but their reaction was warranted. In all fairness, I overreacted also.
I went to these kinds of stairs:
They looked similar to this, but they were covered all over with possibly-flaking monochrome maroon paint and had duller edges than these seem to have.
I started crying and I…
Anyway, my teacher later lectured class about how they should have reacted more nicely. I think her intentions were laudable, but — if I imagine this situation correctly — solution that would have been more effective long-term would be to understand why I overreacted so drastically, pretending to hurt myself for failing to assimilate.
One time, I wanted to play soccer with my classmates due to my desperation for friends and I impulsively touched ball with my hands.
TIP: If you do not understand how to do something and cannot/will not get any learning resources, do not try.
Anyway, everyone became irritated — I think they overreacted, but their reaction was warranted. In all fairness, I overreacted also.
I went to these kinds of stairs:
They looked similar to this, but they were covered all over with possibly-flaking monochrome maroon paint and had duller edges than these seem to have.
I started crying and I…
- pulled out my hair? (I know I did that in sixth year while my teacher was reprimanding me for ignoring her.)
- tried scraping my arms against grates? (This seems most likely, as I still sometimes “scrape” myself to reduce my anger, although without injury.)
- poked and wrote into myself with pencil? (I do not believe I did this, but since I used to do this before using pen, this may have happened.)
Anyway, my teacher later lectured class about how they should have reacted more nicely. I think her intentions were laudable, but — if I imagine this situation correctly — solution that would have been more effective long-term would be to understand why I overreacted so drastically, pretending to hurt myself for failing to assimilate.